New Detox Plan :)

Wow! Where did October go? Wasn't it just yesterday they were putting out the pumpkins at all the grocery stores? Now here it is the 27th and Halloween is THIS weekend!!!

Amazing!

I really should visit my blog more often, you see, I actually ended my 92 Day Juice Feast on day 31. Reasons? 1) It was very difficult to sustain in the cold weather 2) I kept craving CORN 3) I learned more about my emotional triggers with food/weight/diet issues.

The result was not too bad, I lost and was able to keep off 16 lbs, but I did feel deprived and not able to participate socially with my friends at such a fun time of year.

A couple of weeks ago, I had a "session" with a Reiki Master and new friend who is a healer. She shed some pretty enlightening insights with me. We talked for a while as I had my head under her laser light therapy for my scalp (yet another amazing manifestation), and she began to ask me more questions about my hopes and dreams - one of which was in the area of attaining my slim, supple, sexy body :)

We ended up chatting for a couple of hours and she helped me delve deep into some insights stemming back from my childhood. Basically what she encouraged me to do is, make "friends" with food, and love that "little girl" we spoke of. We talked about issues of abandonment which I had not quite pinpointed about my past because they were ever so subtle yet ever so harmful! Especially in the area of coping with food.

As I sat there, I felt the layers peeling off my psyche...the ones that have kept me trapped for so many years. She seemed to ask just the right questions, and as tears streamed down my face, I realized there was some major inner stripping/cleansing going on. I realized, once again, it's NOT about the FOOD. It's about the ENERGY. The thoughts and beliefs we have regarding our bodies, and what we ingest.

That day it was like a lightbulb lit up and I realized I would never be the same. To say that I felt FREEDOM would be an understatement as I have no words to describe the sensation I experienced. All of the sudden I remembered HOW to love myself. That little child within that had covered herself up with layers and layers to protect herself. All she needs is LOVE!

I know all of this sounds so simple, but it was an impacting revelation to me. I KNEW I had to love myself...but didn't realize how far back I had to go to reach for that.

So here I am today. I've made friends with food. I did not ease back into food the way I had been taught by my juicy friends. I just went for the thing I wanted most...POPCORN! But this time I did not eat the whole pot, shared some with the dogs, and I ENJOYED it...this time much more consciously...listening to my body...learning what it means to be truly hungry, or just eating out of some emotional trigger. Golly it's so wonderful! I not only listen physically, but mentally and soulfully as well. Giving myself LOVE instead of FOOD. Allowing myself to FEEL! Realizing that the PAIN is not who I really am. I did gain a few pounds at first, but slowly the scale showed me evidence of my self care. The numbers lowered.

Eckhart Tolle also taught me a lesson from his book The Power of Now that says there are two of us. The observer, and our TRUE selves. We are not the emotions we experience. We are much more DIVINE than that. We must FEEL our emotions when they come...embrace them...and then take a look at them...as the observer! What happened when I did that was truly MAGICAL...the pain started to disappear...why? Because I released the idea that I was the emotion or the pain...when we look at it from the observer's point of view, it totally loses its power. Freaking AMAZING!!!

Thank you Sherry, (my Reiki friend) and thank you Eckhart for leading me into clarity as I've never known it in this area of my life.

Today, I feed myself GOOD wholesome, mostly organic foods. I stop eating when I am full and I am incorporating more exercise. Don't know if I am following any particular "plan" yet. I am not sure if I should even have one...other than just LISTENING! Something I never really did before. I am still all about DETOXING and will continue my research on what the best way I should keep approaching this will be.

That is where I am today. There will be much more as I speak of two things I learned from a conference I went to this past weekend...one is about CORN (yikes) and the other about SALT. After some more research in these areas I will come back on here and share what insights I have gained.

Thanks for reading! Holi Happy Health to you, :D